Be careful what you wish for...

Right now I'm thinking about all those stories where some unsuspecting person rubs a lamp only to discover a genie inside.  You know the story...the lucky guy or gal then gets 3 wishes.  They can wish for anything they want!  But there is always a catch, isn't there?  You wish for a million bucks and suddenly your front yard is piled high with deer.

I've been wanting a change for a while now.  I've just grown so tired of my life and what it has turned me into.  I don't want to get into the whole thing...it's kind of depressing and just makes me sound angsty...but I sort of lost myself over the course of this year. 

But I don't know if I want that old person I was either.  Maybe I want a brand new person...but that scares me a little bit.  You can't just go around reinventing yourself all the time.  There are consequences to such actions. 

I know I can't stay like this though...and during the past few weeks I've felt something yanking me out of it, and it's been great.  I've been doing things I never in a million years thought I'd do.  Some of them go against everything I thought I stood for, but somehow it doesn't feel wrong. 

Does that even make sense?  That's why I'm worried.  I want to keep the best of who I am and let the new stuff in.  I want to live and be happy and have no regrets.  That's my wish...and I feel like I'm actually getting it...but I'm waiting for the catch...I know there has got to be catch somewhere in here...