Emotional Day...

I didn't get much sleep last night...and that usually makes for an interesting day.

Today was no exception.

I don't know if it's hormones or what...but I've been super emotional all day. 

Then I decided to do my (not so daily) devotional and broke down a little bit.  Earlier today I told a friend that I don't know what I'm doing with my life.  I've got one to live...and I don't know if I'm living it right.  Am I using my days the best way I possibly can?  I guess you can never know for sure...but just the fact that I'm asking myself that does not sit well with me. 

There are so many things I want to do and see and experience...and I feel like each day that goes by I'm slipping further away from that. 

What is it?  It's not laziness.  Fear maybe?  I do seem to fear a lot in life.  I seem to do a lot of the wrong things.  And when I do wrong, I have a way of convincing myself that since I've done THAT wrong...I might as well go all out!  Just do everything wrong Tricia! 

Anyway...during my devotional I read this about Jesus coming to die for us:

"Finally, He would show them the greatest love of all:  He would die for them so that the way to God would be opened.  After that, no matter how far a person wandered, no matter how big the sin, there would still be this way back to God.  For love like this would be stronger than sin - stronger than death itself."

No matter how far I go...I know I've always got this way back to God.  And that's enough...it's amazing that that's enough.